It's in the Song of Solomon about the foxes ruining vineyards, but it wasn't until I read a devotional yesterday that I understood what those foxes really are and they are the little frustrations, the nasty little voices, the stuff that throws us off track.
Staying on course when we are healing is important. Understanding what makes me lose my control and risk my progress is really a huge step for me. I found myself all day yesterday and today saying "Little foxes, stay way. Little foxes." whenever I felt that rushing, burning, hair pulling frustration that seems to just knock me off my track.
Who are your little foxes? What do they do or say? Knowing them is a good first step in dealing with them.
Mine are those actions that remind me of the times I was devalued and dismessed.
Mine are those words which seem to say, "ah if you mattered I'd care, but you don't so..."
Mine are those times when the littlest things make me boil inside.
Mine are those things like wet cloths in the sink, left open bread bags, dirty tubs, hole digging dogs...
Mine are those questions that are unheard and the answers dismissed.
Mine are all the times that that little demon whispers in my ear, "not worthy, not good enough, not smart enough, they were right about you all along since you were a kid, worthless, unlovable..."
And instead of, at least for the past couple of days, losing control I'm feeling at peace. I know their little pointy faces, I know their digging ways and I am staring them down. Little foxes, little foxes, go away! Go away! I feel like I am able to really see the roots of the lifelong struggle I've had and now I can start dealing with them. Little steps to deal with little foxes, leading to big leaps forward!