It's not about you...keep that firmly in mind if you think this post is about you. Remember the Carly Simon song. This post is about me, for the first time I am speaking out in this way and it is about me.
Not your reputation.
Not your recollection.
Not your friends.
Not your family.
Not your feelings.
Not your guilt, or lack thereof.
It is about me opening doors and airing things out. It is about me sharing my story so that I can encourage and inspire others on the same healing path.
It is about me not being ashamed of who I am, not being angry at the circumstances which formed me into who I am.
I am a survivor of sexual abuse, physical abuse and emotional abuse. The key word there folks is survivor, so journey with me and we'll be strong together, we'll cry together and we'll most likely get in to a great bit of trouble because we won't be silent anymore!
It is about going to bed and not thinking about the monsters in the dark.
It is about waking up and loving the woman in the mirror and the girl she was.
It is about taking a chance that the world won't end if the silence does.
If you do know me, and you don't know this story about me, I pray that it doesn't change how you see me. I'm not any different than I was before you read this, your just seeing another layer, another dimension of me.
If you don't know me and you are reading my story as I start this journey, welcome!
If you are among the few who who parts of this story, it is because you encourage and inspire me that I am doing this next part of my journey of healing, of faith. You have brought me along with your love, your tears, your healing...and I thank you for it.
You don't have to like what I say.
I don't like what I have to say.
You do have to listen.
I could have been your daughter.
I could have been your sister.
I could have been your friend.
I could have been your wife.
If I was, would you have stayed silent?
If I was, would you feel differently about this story?
I am still a seeker, and I'm still scarred - that's who I am. This is me...welcome to the journey with a Scarred Seeker, also known as Mystic.